- Kang Mae

I am not talking about your son only.  I was like that.

- A refugee

What?  Are you saying that you were a refugee, too and understand us, things like that?

- Kang Mae

No.  I wasn’t a refugee but I was a poor bright student who loved to study.  I was a school leader many times.  There is a disadvantage being smart.  I realized how this world worked too soon.  I knew one day that the rich gets richer and the poor continues to be poor.  I knew I would be poor like this until I die no matter how hard I might try.  So, I built my self esteem instead.  I chinned up all the time.  I might want others to think that I had chosen to be poor, not by destiny.

I held on to myself that way but my effort became nothing after flooding.  There was no more a poor but proud kid.  From then on I lived in a container but didn’t want to receive donation.  I was a homeless who didn’t even know what my situation was.

- Kang Mae

I thought about dying at that time.  I blamed my mom who had thrown me in this nasty world.  There was a solution.  It was leaving this world with my mom.  My mom was paralyzed at that time.  Her phlegm needed to be taken out every 3 minutes for her to breathe.  I didn’t need to do anything except waiting about 10 minutes.  Just then there was a sound from the next door that I had never heard before. It was so beautiful.

- Kang Mae

It was true.  I saw an orchestra if it was a dream or an illusion.  I saw a future me who was conducting the orchestra.  It was a salvation, comforting, and power.  Then I became a conductor.

It’s the clip from this episode.  It plays Beethoven Symphony No. 9.

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